break into a new path

i would call it numbness. the feeling of no feeling week after week. pain was never invited to the party and joy was  not on the list. a glimpse of happiness, sure. a hint of frustration, every so often.

i was caught in the lull of the enemy.
"hush my friend. suppress the dreams."

it was as if he made the bed and tucked me in. i was wrapped in the comfort of complacency. but the comfort is so false. the comfort isn't actually comfort at all. it is not born of the Comforter. it is a lie. false security. unreached potential. blinders on eyes created to see through the same eyes as Jesus.

how great it is to have an Overseer. a Father who is not blind. a Lord that cannot be mislead. the Creator who has power over all.

He set the alarm to wake me from the slumber. i was brought to a night of fellowship.

vulnerability through prayer to each other.
prayer over one another.
prayer for the city.
prayer for the nations.
praise after praise.
dances of power.
the process was repeated until 3am.

then confirmation through worship and preaching in the morning as church. thank You, Jesus.

the theme of the experience can be painted through the lyrics of a song.

Cannot Keep You

They tried to keep you in a tent
They could not keep you in a temple
Or any of their idols, to see and understand

We cannot keep you in a church
We cannot keep you in a Bible
Or it's just another idol to box you in

They could not keep you in their walls
We cannot keep you in ours either
For you are so much greater

Who is like the Lord
The maker of the heavens
Who dwells with the poor
He lifts them from the ashes
And He seats them among princess
Who is like the Lord

We've tried to keep you in our tents
We've tried to keep you in our temples
We've worshiped all our idols
We want all that to end

So we will find you in the streets
And we will find you in the prisons
And even in our Bibles and churches

We cannot contain, cannot contain
The glory of your name
We cannot contain, cannot contain
The glory of your name
We cannot contain, cannot contain
The glory of your name

Who is like the Lord
You took me from the ashes
And you healed me from my blindness
Who is like the Lord

"I am still confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the Lord

in the land of the living.

Wait for the Lord;

be strong, and take heart

and wait for the Lord."

- Psalm 27:13,14

finding comfort by leaving it

there's a truth i know:

Jesus is more than enough

but what about when there is all the stuff that isn't enough?

when there is a wall built up of junk

a wall that hides that truth

i find myself the most satisfied in life when there is the least around me

when there are more people than things

when you want to sit in silence

listen to a song and turn it into worship

read the Word instead of turn on the tv

and the times when there are too many things to choose from?

they are empty.

d i s c o n n e c t e d

so i am most comfortable when i am not surrounded by the "comforts" of this world

because of this:

i want to live an "uncomfortable" life

be different, not to stand out

but to better strive for a pure life that indulges in Jesus

i can only pour out what i take in

right now it is not just Jesus

i get distracted and lazy

i hate it

so who wants to join me?

go find a simple place to live

get some roommate who are passionate about Jesus

be known for:

taking in the hungry

fellowship/community

joy

passion

all these conveniences we have don't make being a Christ follower convenient.

there's nothing convenient about living for Jesus

that would take out the excitement, mystery, and faith

so back off Satan and get your stupid "things" out of the way

you're just afraid of what will happen in this world if all those who follow Jesus stop buying into your lies.

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when Christians were called such it was meant to make fun of them

they were called "little Christs"

i don't want to be a Christian simply because i go to church

i want to be called so because people identify me as someone who is like Christ

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it's been too uncomfortable within my comfort

i want to be so comfortable in what the world would see as an uncomfortable life

leave it to gain it

leave the world to gain Jesus

simple truths i've known but just haven't seemed to come around to living consistently yet